The Day You Were Born

I never wanted children. I realize that is a blanket statement but I never did. I loved children, but didn't see myself as being a very good mother, so I had decided I was not going to have children. My husband and I talked about it and kept dismissing it. But fate had something planned for me.

In 2002 I found out that I was pregnant with my first child. (I say first because now I want more!) After an uneventful 8 months, I was looking forward to the birth of my baby. Then, I started to have problems with my blood pressure, abnormal weight gain and dizziness. On March 6, 2003 my doctor was set to induce me, but decided to wait a few more days. Three years ago today, The Boy could wait no longer.

Labor wasn't typical and I will spare all of you the details of my "natural" childbirth experience and the trauma that led to the baby's stay in the NICU.

The Boy was going to be named Samuel. I always liked the name and so we had decided that should we have a boy, his name would be Samuel. In the delivery room, the nurses handed my Better Half our son and they bonded. My Better Half announced to those of us still in the delivery room that his name would not be Samuel. My husband chose his name right there as they gazed into each other's eyes and made a father-son connection.

Three years ago today, my life changed. Three years ago today, a piece missing from my soul was returned. Three years ago today, a little ray of sunshine - no, wait, a lightening bolt of energy entered my world. Since that day, our little trio has been blessed.

There is not a day that goes by that my son does not make me smile multiple times. I wake early so that I can stare at his peaceful face. When he beats me to the early morning, I awake with him gazing at me and smiling. I get a "good morning mommy, it's a beautiful day!" And he is right. Everyday with him is a beautiful day!

So, I am going to leave work early today to take my son to dinner and bowling. Just us. A little thank you to him for blessing me and making me whole just three years ago today!

Oh, and I'm adding the picture below so that you all can see a little of what makes me smile everyday! Happy Birthday Buddy! I love you more than I can express in words!