Time will tell

I've been in a funk, one out of which I can't seem to climb. I feel as if I am in a state of flux, as it were.

Politics swirling, debates about gun rights, taxes, oil, the economy. My head is spinning. The economy is the constant. This economy, where I've lost about 20,000.00 in investments over the last 6 months - I know it will bounce back - someday. This economy spurred by a democratic congress intent on making everyone believe that there is a mortgage crisis out there so that we will forget the roadblocks they've purposefully imposed so that the U.S. can't drill successfully or in mass quantity for its own oil. This economy torpedoed by foreign oil prices. You know the prices were are beholden to because we don't drill our own oil successfully enough - oh and we don't use that Iraqi oil democrats would have you believe we are fighting a war for.

It isn't going to get brighter anytime soon. Does that sound pessimistic? It is. So, I have to step back and take a look at my situation. I am a very well-paid senior level attorney at a large law firm. I've no real jury trial experience (mine always settle on the eve). I've no real book of business of my own (family life stands in the way of shmoosing - need a lawyer?), and if the economy starts to hit my practice - I am likely out the door. So, what does an unmarketable senior attorney do when she loses her job? I don't know. I've been pondering that in the the event the inevitable happens. Right now I know I'm secure - but where will I be in six months time?

I've always been one to do. I don't sit back and relax and wait for the right job to fall into my lap. I'm too old to know better. That doesn't happen - besides, I have responsibilities and obligations. The right job doesn't fall out of the sky while I am catching a tan on the beach (though I do intend to spend a weekend at the beach in the near future. . . ). I have to be prepared. I have to get out there and find that right job myself, and if I have to work a few shitty jobs in the interim, well, it beats unemployment right?

So, I've been looking, keeping my options open, keeping my name out there - just in case. The problem is, if the economy woes hit me here at my secure job, I simply will not be able to find a similar job elsewhere, it will hit all of those too. So, if you see me at your neighborhood Kohl's working the checkout line - please don't laugh - a girl's gotta feed her family afterall.

I've been gloom and doom for a few weeks - a perenniel funk fog as it were.
But in all seriousness, am I the only one thinking about these things? I can't be. The economy tends to affect the law much later than other businesses afterall. Time, I suppose, will tell.